I’ve been updating my workout playlist the past hour or so even though I should be sleeping. The combination of all the stress, lack of sleep, unhealthy food, and lack of exercise is taking a toll on my body and lifestyle. I’ve been feeling so tired and sluggish these days and my body’s been feeling a lot heavier. Some friends and I made a workout plan and today’s day 1. I’m really excited to get back on the workout grind and eating healthier. Last summer I was working out everyday and I had a lot more energy and was able to maintain a regulated eating schedule.
People always give me a hard time when I talk about my weight or body, and sometimes it’s frustrating to go through that. I want to be fit and healthy, that’s all.
Excited to start making changes and breaking out of this slump.
Find peace in your storm
Life is a hurricane. It swirls, and blows, and chaos ensues. Some people try to keep it all in order, others try to pretend it’s not happening, others just try to hang on and ride it out.
The goal for us as Christians, is to find the eye of that storm, where it’s still, where we can look straight up and see cool blue sky. It may rage all around us, but there is peace in the eye of the storm. There is peace in the midst of chaos.
This eye is moving, it moves forward, and we must move with it, lest all the storms and worries of life overtake us. By the same token, if we move too fast, we dash into the face of this storm, and we constantly become subject to it’s fury and drama and turmoil.
Be still at the heart of your storm. Be still and know that He is God. Be still and know that you are not God. Then ask God to take every anxiety you have. Clear the slate. Know the peace that surpasses all understanding.
Time of Rest
After my exam this afternoon, I tried to sit down and study and get some more work done. I was able to be productive for a few hours before the exhaustion kicked in, and I succumbed. Initially I was going to call it a night early and just sleep. But even the thought of sinking into the bed and drifting off into unconsciousness didn’t satisfy me. I was searching for more than just physical rest; I was drained in every way possible. So I called my mom and asked if I could go home for the night. She gave me a cheerful “okay” and said she’d leave right then. No questions asked.
I think what I needed was a change of scenery. I haven’t been home since spring break even though I live pretty close to school. The past week I’ve been constantly tired and sleepy and emotional. Hopefully I’ll be able to recharge a bit tonight and be back on my feet tomorrow morning. I’m going to make a list of things that need to get done and get back on my work out grind. I realized that I was much more motivated and productive last summer when I was exercising everyday.